"Anyone who listens to my teaching and follows it is wise, like a person who builds a house on solid rock. Though the rain comes in torrents and the floodwaters rise and the winds beat against that house, it won’t collapse because it is built on bedrock. But anyone who hears my teaching and doesn’t obey it is foolish, like a person who builds a house on sand. When the rains and floods come and the winds beat against that house, it will collapse with a mighty crash.” Matthew 7:24-27
For months I have been praying for this new season to settle down, but changes keep coming at an increasing speed. I was longing for true security. I thought that upending my 21-year career in the corporate fintech world was the culprit for feeling disoriented so often. And before I left, I thought the constant organizational changes and acquisitions were the cause. Nope. Turns out that just like the saying goes, "the only constant in life change."
Even looking shortly into the future, I easily foresee I need a rhythm and peace that can withstand the changes, rather than praying futility for the changes to stop. After all, there are certainly huge ones coming in just a few months. My darling girl, first child, and only daughter is going away to college. The roof over our heads will now only protect four human beings, three dogs, and one cat. Another roof will protect her golden blonde-haired head. A roof that is many miles away. This will certainly be a bigger lifestyle change than even the drastic career move I said yes to only months ago.
And while that may be the biggest change, the smaller daily ones are happening too. Unexpected staff changes at work this month reminded me of this truth. They reminded me to ask myself what is not in constant flux here in this world. Of course, the answer is always the same- nothing.
So as much as I've been praying that things will settle down, my heart has been being changed in and through the changes I have endured. I have realized that I desire consistency because it gives me a false sense of security. Changes shake up my well-laid plans and remind me I do not know the future at all. They highlight my desire to be in control and hope in my ability to manage my life all on my own.
But through them, I have felt the Spirit calling from within that it is time to change the rock on which my life is built so I can withstand the waves to come. Attempting to build my life on my self-controlled schedule and got-it-all together planned-out plan has always been like building my house upon the sand. The only rock in which to place my hope for a secure and good life is on the cornerstone. The one sent to rescue me again and again. The one who is always with me and never leaves me. Emmanuel, God with us.
Abiding with Jesus, I find a rhythm where my soul finds security and peace regardless of the waves of change. He is the constant one that I can trust. The only thing that never changes. So I lay down all my well-laid plans to take His hand instead. It has become clear this year that I cannot have both. Only following in radical obedience and abiding day by day is the way to a life of peace. Life with Him is a life built upon the rock, and that is the life I want.
Father, forgive me for my human tendency to take back control of my life. You know my fear and distrust make me want to control things, but you have always gently guided me back to the way that is much more secure. Help me to lay don't any false sense of security so I can find true peace in you. Remind me that you are sovereign and good through everything always. In Jesus' name, Amen.